fortune, anyone?

We went to a chinese restaurant on Saturday with the rest of my family.

The waitress gave me two fortune cookies.
They were both great fortunes.

One was that I would walk on the sand of many countries through out my life (or something like that). I have no problems with that at all. I love to travel.

The next one said that I would find something that was very important to me in the coming week. I giggled a little to Dustyn and in a sarcastic voice said, "Hmm... maybe I will find my pictures this week. ha ha."

(this is just a picture of a picture... i need to scan them in. I was just too excited to tell you)

Lost.

I hate it when I lose something important.  Something that means everything to me.  

I know I have mentioned it before, but I lost all the pictures that we took the day that Hannah was born.  (The hospital gave us a disposable camera)   I honestly don't think I have seen them for years.  I have no idea where to look.  I have looked everywhere time and time again.  But still, they are lost.

Tonight, I suddenly had the urgency to find them!  I must find them tonight.  That is all that I have thought about all day (and well...  for the past 3.5+ years).  All day I imagined looking for the photos and finding them and writing a nice post with a new picture of my beautiful daughter to post with it.  A picture of our little family together.  Maybe heal my heart a little.

I can't find them.

I have searched all the places that I have searched a million times and they still aren't there.  (There aren't many places to search in our house).  I would stay up all night looking, if I knew where to look.

It always makes me completely sick.  Physically sick.  How could I possibly lose the only pictures of my daughter?  (We still have the ones the hospital took, thankfully)  I mean really, where could they have gone?  Did we leave them at our previous house?  Should I go knock on the door and ask?  Can I really go another year without finding them?  After 4 years, I thought we would find them.  I need to find them.

With or without pictures...  

Happy Angel Day my baby.  I love you so much.  I can't wait to be with you again. 

I thought this year would be easier.  I thought after 4 years my heart has begun to heal.  I know we will be with her again and I know she is with all of our many loved ones that have passed on.  How can I be sad?  And here I sit bawling like a baby because I can't find my pictures.   

I can't believe it's been 4 years.

Sunglasses . . . anyone?

I am completely frustrated.  I lost my sunglasses!  I have searched as many places as I can think to search.  I have no more ideas.  So if anyone sees them, tell them I miss them.

Not only are they nice to have... I mean who really likes the sun in their eyes?  But, who wants to lose a nice pair of $350.00 sunglasses?  I haven't even had them an entire year yet!  Grrr...

But if anyone stole them, or finds them... lets hope they have bad eyes.  Otherwise, they are in for a nice, good headache.

P.S.  In case you find an extra pair, they are Black Ralph Lauren Sunglasses with a small white stripe on the sides (vertical) with white insides - kinda largish.   They are very prescriptioned and are in a black Ralph Lauren case.  Thank You.