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White walls

Through our adoption journey we have been matched, packed, and ready to leave at a moments notice at least 6 or so times (really, I've lost count.  We've been "matched" many more times).  We prepared, loved and prayed for so so many little children.  Children of God.  Children we hoped and prayed would come into our home. We are prepared.  We are ready.  We have everything a baby would need to thrive and grow.

Lately I have felt the urge to get rid of everything. Remember the nursery?  I feel like I need to paint it white.  I want white walls.  Now, I know you are asking, "Why put so much work into something that you are just going to paint white and start over?"  I want to start over.  I want to go back to the first year of our adoption journey where we were excited!  Anxious!  Ready!  I want to feel the fresh feeling of HOPE again.

I can't look at the nursery.  I never go in there, but it is always tugging at the back of my mind.  After packing and unpacking so many times, it's a mess.  I want to go organize it and make it perfect.  Ready.  But I just can't.  I want to get rid of it.

Thankfully I have the gospel in my life that continually gives me hope.  I have friends.  Many friends that are hoping and praying for us!  I have so many friends that are always there offering support.  I love reading blogs.  They help me so much to see how great things can turn out.  And how sometimes, they don't turn out.  But you know what?  I am not the only one going through this.  There are other people out there, like me.  Yes.  Little old me.

I have family that are always there!  Ready to hand out pass-along cards, talk to everyone they know about adoption, and to support us in every way they can.

There is so much love and support surrounding me.  How can I want to start over?  I never want to forget the experiences we have had.  I never want to forget the little spirits we have loved and hoped for.  I never want to forget the spirit that has filled our lives with each experience.  Those are perfect moments.  Moments when my heart wants to jump out of my chest.  Those are moments that keep me going and wanting to try again and again.  Those are moments that give me hope.

SNOW!!

It's been snowing for the past two hours or so. There isn't much accumulating, but it's still snowing. It's not even sticking to the ground yet. I love the snow! Although I am looking forward to spring, if that makes any sense. At least when there is snow it covers up our ugly yard! Another thing that makes me happy that it's almost spring is the fact that there is still a little bit of light left when I get off work! I mean it may only be 30 minutes, but that is 30 minutes longer than I have had for a LONG time. I hate getting off work when it's dark! It's kinda depressing! Yah for DAYLIGHT!

Well I thought i would post some of the pictures from our nursery! It's fun getting ready for a baby! We haven't worked on the nursery for awhile, but hopefully we'll get back in the swing of things and get it done!

Have a great SNOWY day!