M-I-A

I hadn't realized that it had been so long since I posted, but Arianne noticed! :) Thanks for remembering me!

It has been a busy week. Full of traveling and whatever else we could fit into the mix. So here, for your reading pleasure, is a quick rundown of our week. Well as far as I can remember. :P

Of course on Tuesday Dustyn cut his finger and had to go get stitches. His finger is doing well and he gets his stitches out on Friday! YAY! And I guess while I am at it, I might as well fill you in on the story. He was at school unloading the kiln. One of the students used a little too much glaze and his ceramic pot fused to the kiln shelf. Dustyn pried it off and as he was doing so, his right index finger slipped and ran across a sharp piece of glass (fired ceramic and glaze = glass) and spit it open (He said it looked like a fish mouth. Ha ha). It's about an inch long and was quite deep. So that was the story with that. On a side note - today he was getting another pot out of the kiln. Same student's pot. He was using gloves this time. Smart, I know! Well he got it of the shelf and walked out of his office to see whose it was so he could get on them about using too much glaze and . . . he cut his pinky. It's not as deep or big, but he says it bled a lot. By now - the student is feeling horrible. And his account is being charged for two new kiln shelves. Poor kid. Poor Dustyn.

On Tuesday night, Dustyn and I went to a dinner and award ceremony for the Sevier County Commissioners Show. The show was alright this year. Sadly, I was not impressed. But the dinner was alright. Nothing to write home about. :P So that was our Tuesday!

On Wednesday we drove up to Springville right after school (Right before we left, my sweet brother had us stop by so he could give me a throw that he bought me. It's the best! Thanks Chet, I LOVE it. He feels left out when I wear SSHS shirts, so he bought me a RHS blanket. Rivalry. lol). We had to pick up some student artworks at the Museum. While we were there we had the opportunity to see the Spring Salon show. For the most part it was an excellent show and I was impressed!! But there were some pieces that I just didn't know what to think about. They hadn't put up the name/title slips yet, so a title might have helped me make my decision, but I have yet to make a decision. There was one painting that I want to buy!! I am sure it was in the thousands, but I LOVED it. I wish I could show you. Guess you will have to believe me. Unless you go to the show!!

We also had the amazing experience of seeing the Wayne Thiebaud show! It was great! I want to go see it again! If you have the opportunity to see it before it leave, I would recommend it. Especially if you are interested in Pop Art. It was awesome. We of course ended up buying the show catalog and the "Delicious" book. I also learned that when he was young he lived in St. George for a few years. He is a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. But I am not clear whether or not he is currently active (I don't think he is), but I found it interesting that he had ties to Utah.

After we saw the show we jumped in the car and headed to St. George. Dustyn had a yearbook training the following morning. I decided to go with him since I usually help a little with the yearbook! We got to St. George around 12:00AM or so. We actually stayed in Hurricane. So Thursday we went to the Yearbook Training which was pretty fun. Then we rushed back home to host at the commissioners show by 4:00PM.

Hosting was pretty boring. For THREE hours. But we did get a chance to look through the show, which like I said, I found pretty disappointing. It may have been that I was at the Springville Museum of Art the previous day and saw 2 awesome show . . . or the show just wasn't great this year. I did however like 5 pieces! Dustyn's! I thought he did a great job. But it wasn't really anything that Sevier County would consider in their show. They are pretty conservative. BUT . . . Dustyn did sell another piece this year! He was pretty excited . . . until she told him where she was going to hang it. In the bathroom. He was so depressed about that. And really, WHO hangs original oil paintings in the bathroom? Weird. Oh well. At least he sold another piece. If you recall he sold a sculpture last year. So the Commissioners show has been good for him.

On Friday we mostly hung out and chilled with my parents. I thought we did something, but I can't remember.

On Saturday we drove up to Provo. We made a stop at Costco and picked up a few things. We went to lunch at the Olive Garden. Soup, Salad and Breadsticks. The best! We wandered some more. Went to both malls and just hung out. It was nice to just spend time together wandering. We went to Baby Momma. Funny, funny movie. I really liked it. Dustyn wants to own it, if that tells you anything. I really was funny though. And good! AND I can't remember any really bad parts! That is always nice! For dinner we wanted to go to Leatherby's (I was craving Gretchen's Golden Nugget). We were sad to find out they had closed. :( So sad. I am totally disappointed. So instead we went to Red Robin. It was pretty good. I had Fish and Chips with LOTS of Malt Vinegar. YUM! I think I get fish, just so I can eat the vinegar. I am such a vinegar junkie! But I was still on the look out for somewhere to find good ice cream with homemade carmel. No where. We drove all the way to American Fork. We finally just got a shake at Parker's Drive In. Yes, Melisa, I think of you every time I go there! Ha ha! We ordered fresh strawberry shakes, but there were no strawberries. :( Just syrup, I think. Really I think they were close to closing and just wanted to get us out of there, because i know she heard us. Luckily we had bought strawberries at Costco, so I got some out and made a real Strawberry Shake! After that we finally decided to head home.

On Sunday we went to church. I sat out in the foyer to make my back happy. Apparently that did not make my back happy. :( It has been sore since then. Church is a struggle for my back. :P

Moday, was just Monday. Oh wait, Monday was the day that Mario Kart came out on the Wii! Luckily Dustyn sold a painting last week! Ha ha!! We are SO smart with our money! Ha ha! But if anyone wants to play, let me know and I will send you our friend code. Yay!

Today I stayed home and scanned pictures ALL day for the Senior Video that we are doing. So far, so good. We are coming along. We have less than a month to finish it. OH yeah, and I got ALL of our laundry done. I needed the day off to get my back feeling better - and oh is it! I am so happy. Now my hip is so sore from compensating for my back. Man, I have issues!

So that is what has happened while I have been MIA. Nothing too exciting, but a lot of traveling and busyness. And of course, no pictures. I have been such a slacker with pictures lately. I either forget my camera or never pull it out. When I do have it ready, I never find the perfect photo op. Hopefully I will get out of this non-photoness stage. My Photo blog is suffering.

Husbands

Don't you love it when your husband calls you and you proceed to have a nice lunch time chat.  You continue to tell him about your day.  He tells you about his day.  

And then comes the "Well, I am on my way to the hospital.  I need to get some stitches in my finger".  

Oh.  Okay.  Have a safe drive to the hospital.

Oh yeah and Honey, Could you pick up some milk on the way home?

No, really I wish I could have gone to the hospital with him.  But I am baby sitting the twins and guess since it isn't too serious it will be okay.  

*edit*  Well it was only 6 stitches on his right pointer finger.  Right up the middle and into the nail.  At least that is what I hear.  There is no way I am actually going to LOOK at it!  ;)  No way.

Marathon

I think it would be so awesome to run a marathon.  Actually I hate running, but I want to love it.  I want to be able to run for 3 hours!  I want to find motivation to do it.  

I really want to run the 1/2 marathon next year.  Those of you who don't love running and have trained/ran a marathon, how did you find the motivation everyday to go running?  I think I would do good for a few weeks, maybe even a month.  But I always lose motivation.  :P

The questions of all time:

How do you find motivation?

K~A~M~I~E

The information you have all been waiting for!  (or not, but read it anyways!)

Besides blogging...hehe...what are 3 other favorite hobbies? and why are they some favorite hobbies?  

Well . . .  I love Photography.  I love looking at photos, taking photos, and creating photos.  It is for sure one of my favorite things.  I am not very good at it, but it is for sure a hobby.  

I love to go camping, fishing, boating and hunting.  I would have to say I enjoy it because these are the times I get to spend time with my family!  We have so many great times in the mountains.  Great memories are created.  Plus, who doesn't love being in the mountains!  :)

Okay, okay, I admit it, I love playing video games with my Dustyn.  Really, if it involves Dustyn, it's probably a hobby!  

Art.  I love going to museums and looking at Art.  I love watching Dustyn create Art.  I am always wondering how I could create my own art.  But I have yet to figure that out.  

What's the weirdest dream you've ever had?

Uhm . . . I usually don't remember my dreams.  I can't think of one that pops out.  I will have to get back to you on that one . . . when I have a weird one.  Sorry Michelle.

If you could live anywhere outside of UT, where would it be?

Hmm . . . So many choices and places that I would live.  But I would definitely have to say Pennsylvania.  Of course.  I honestly fell in love with the whole state.  I dream about going back every night!  (that isn't weird though, is it?)  I think about it all the time.  I am obsessed with it.  I'm a dork.  But I would also love to live in a high rise studio apartment in downtown New York or Chicago.  Love it.  If it were possible I could move to a new city/state every year or two!  

Where you and Dustyn of the same faith when you met?  

Yes, we were.  We have both been members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints all of our lives.

Oh and how do you pronounce your name?

I am not good at Phonics, but the best way I can think of to tell you is . . . Kam-E.  Does that help?  If anyone else knows how to phonetically spell my name, feel free to help me out.

What is your favorite Tim McGraw song? (That should be a little hard to answer since he has so many good ones!)

Yes, Meliss, this is a hard question to answer.  I will tell you my top three for today.

1.  All We Ever Find  (It's unofficially the Dustyn and Kamie song!  It was our song when we were dating.  We were going to dance to it at our wedding reception, but it didn't happen.  Clean-up happened!  Ha ha)

2.  My Little Girl  (Maybe it's my quest to adoption or dreaming of having a baby, but I love this song!! P.S. It is at the bottom of my blog if you were wondering.)

3.  Put Your Lovin' On Me  (I LOVE this song.  This is my song when I am mad/angry/sad or really - just any emotion.  I drive somewhere,  put it on repeat and blast it for hours.)

What are you most afraid of?

Hmm . . . That is a hard one.  I have a lot of fears.  You know all your basic ones.  But I guess I would have to say that my biggest fear now is not becoming who I know I can be.  Letting myself hide behind Dustyn.  Losing who I am because of anxiety.

What is one thing you never wanted your mother to find out?

Well my mother already knows everything about me!  :)  But really I guess in all honesty - finding out how much I really do care about her and love her.  But if she found out that I might lose my independence or something, right?  Ha ha.  

Where is your favorite place to get away?

I would have to say camping anywhere, but mostly Fishlake/Seven Mile.  I love the cool summer nights up in the mountains and sleeping in a tent.  I love the cool breeze and warm sun.  Anywhere with my family!

What has been your biggest regret so far?

Hmm . . . I can't think of a regret that I have.  Maybe not going to an out of state school and going into Marketing, Advertising, or Architecture.

What is your favorite kind of snack?

I would have to say fresh fruit!  YUM!  With my favorite fruit dip!  

But I also love fresh tortillas!  (Have I ever mentioned that before?  Ha ha)

Who is your favorite blogging friend and IM friend???? :)

Ha ha ha!  Arianne, naturally.   

I do however, LOVE all my blogging friends and they are all my favorite!

Well that's me!  Hope you all learning something interesting or just entertaining.  

Super Smash Brothers Brawl

Any body wanna kick our trash?   (seriously)

2492-4384-1342

We look forward to losing!   

We need your help!

Today I sat down and read our chapter newsletter from LDSFS.  I found some interesting facts and some awesome words.  But the one thing that caught my attention is the amount of adoptions that happened in our office last year.  There were three couples from our office that were able to experience the amazing miracle of adoption.  Three.  All three of those couples had designated adoptions.  Now you are wondering what this all means?  

We need your help!

If you know of anyone considering adoption, please feel free to pass along our information.  I know that everyone knows how to find our information, but here is a little refresher.  

Our email address is:  dustynkamie(at)gmail.com

Our case worker:  Chris @ (435)896-6446

Our LDSFS Online profile:  www.itsaboutlove.org/profile   Go to "search adoption profiles" and type in DustynAndKamie

Our Parent Profiles Online profile:  www.parentprofiles.com/Dustyn-Kamie

And don't forget all of our amazing friends that are hoping to adopt!  You can find their links to the right.  

Thank you so much for your love and support!  We can't wait for this amazing opportunity!

My Question for you . . .

What are your most favorite pair of affordable jeans?  Which pair can you just not live without?  What pair lasts the longest without getting holes in the pockets?  ;)

I am in the need of some new jeans and I am at a loss of where to look.  So . . . I turn to you, my faithful readers!

Me, me, me!

Okay, this is the last day to ask any question that you want about:

Tomorrow I will work on answering them all. If you have no idea what I am talking about . . . you can see here and here!

Windy Wind

Yes, it is super windy today.  The news said 50+mph.  I was hoping to come home and see all the siding falling off my house so we'd have an excuse to get new siding or something.  

Well I wasn't completely wrong.
 

But I am pretty sure one panel isn't enough to get new siding.  Dang!

It's TAX day!

Luckily we always get our taxes done like the first week in February, so today is just another day for us.  But last night we finally caved and went and spend some of our tax return.  Apparently our savings account is just too easy to get into!  But look at our new toys!!  Yay!!

Except ours is pewter, but I couldn't find a picture of the one we actually have - and I am not at home...

This will make my summer MUCH more enjoyable.  The fan we had previously quit working about 2+ years ago.  It's been hot.  This fan is super nice!  It reverses to circulate air in the winter and the summer!  And it has a remote.  Nice!  I hope this one last longer than the last.  We installed it last night.  On the lowest setting it works so well!  And is so quiet.  It's huge, it seemed a LOT smaller in Home Depot.  Ha ha.  I know, I am FAR too excited about a ceiling fan!  lol

We also got a screen door!  Yay!  It's just one that you can use when you need it and when you don't need it, it rolls back into the side.  I didn't want to put a big ugly screen on my door.  I like my black door too much.  In fact it is the only part I do like on the exterior of our house!  :)

So that is our excitement on tax day! 

 (I won't tell you about the other financially smart decision we made yesterday.  Ha ha.  We are allowed to play a little, right?)  ;)

Monday, Monday.

What I am not loving this fine Monday . . .

Runny Noses! The twins both have a runny nose and don't seem to be feeling well. I hope they are getting a good nap and will feel better this afternoon! It's sad when you have sick babies! Poor kids.

What I am loving this Monday morning . . . 

Racko! Dustyn and I played Racko for hours last night with my mom, dad, and Chet. Fun times! I remember playing this game when I was a kid. If you haven't played it or haven't for a long time - you should go buy it! It's only $5-6.00. Cheap entertainment!

Raspberry Lemonade Crystal Light! YUM! I love these little "On the Go" packets! I am not a huge fan of water, so when I just can't stomach it, I figure this is better than grabbing a coke or something. Right? Ha ha! I hope so!

Yep, that right. A Wii. Dustyn and I were baby sitting over the weekend and they happen to have a Wii. Since we have never played, we decided to give it a try. And by we I mean Dustyn. I watched him. (Not that I wouldn't play - but he was having so much fun!) But he was so funny! He enjoyed himself and is now wishing for a Wii. I mean we sure do need one to go with our Game Cube, Playstation 2 and DS'. But they have MARIO CART! That is the part that makes it hard to pass up! Ha ha!

$5.00 foot long subs from Subway! Yum!

Friends! Friends that wanna hang out with me and get me out of town! I am excited! Now I just need to do it! 

Naps! Sick kids need naps! :)

My Chacos!

The hope of 80 degree weather today! Yay!

My IKEA duvet.  It makes me want to stay in bed!  :)

Brittany's new book website!  Check it out!

Grape Gatorade!  YUM!  I love this stuff!

What are you loving on this nice warm spring Monday?

Top Ten things I would really like to eat. . .right now!

10.  Chili's.

9.  Macaroni Grill.

8.  Noodles.

7.  Sour Dough Pizza with Mozz Cheese, Artichoke Hearts, Fresh Tomatoes and Garlic Sauce (just a little).  Or better yet . . . CHICAGO PIZZA!  YUM!  If they weren't $58.00 for shipping, I'd order one!  

6.  Spaghetti Factory.

5.  Philly Cheesesteak.

4.  Cafe Rio.

3.  Homemade Tortillas with Salsa, Cheese, and Guacamole.  

2.  Thaifoon.

1.  The Cheesecake Factory.

Apparently I really want to eat out.  Too bad I can't find any of those restaurants close to me.  Have I mentioned that I am ready for a Vacation?  Oh . . . okay.  Just checking!

**edit** Even though Subway was not on my list - It was pretty good! YUM!

Another . . .

. . . favorite song from a commercial! (but not the car. :P Sorry to all you KIA fans!)

M~U~S~I~C

Living in a small town, I miss out on most new songs or popular songs.  Unless it's country, I probably haven't heard it.  And even if it is, I am usually listening to a CD or my iPod so I miss it anyways.  

So in search of new favorites - what are some of your favorites right now?  

Tuesday . . . tuesday.

So I never actually got around to finishing my post yesterday - so you will have to wait for another day.  Dustyn, Chet (my brother - the youngest) and I went to help Jace (my other brother) do the last final cleaning of his house so he can sell it.  It was pretty fun!  At least I enjoyed it - As I coveted his kitchen/appliances and nice new house.  I wish his house were closer to the high school and we'd buy it.  It's so nice!  It makes me want a new house - even though I am thankful for my house and I do love it.  But there is just something about a new house.  :)  But I still love our little abode.  

Then being the fabulous brother that he is, he took us to El Mexicano on the way home!  Yum!  It was a nice evening!  Now if I could find the same energy and excitement to clean my own house!  ha ha.  Isn't it funny how that works.  

So I was just thinking about THIS post.  You know, I'd LOVE to answer all those questions, but I am thinking there are more than THREE people who read this blog.  Maybe not.  I don't know.  But if there are . . . ask away!  You can even be anonymous (but appropriate, please . . . )!  Thank you Melissa, Alecia and Mom for participating.  I haven't forgot about you and I will get back to your questions.  

So come on - let's get some questions rolling!  It will be fun!

Things I am loving on this monday!

My Husband

Adoption

Wow! Wow! Wubbzy! (Always a favorite of the twins.)

Yogurt

Tortillas (of course)

Looking at these cute babies! This makes me excited to adopt!

Travis and Cali

Bryce and Brenley

Trent and Heather

Mike and Hallie

The R House

Wes and Tabitha

Just to name a few!

Rain

General Conference yesterday

Blogging

Family

Flowers

Spring

Friends

MacBook

That I got Tim McGraw Concert Tickets

The Office

Brooke White

Horton Hears a Who

I am not finished yet, but I will have to come back a little later - stay tuned!

Have a fabulous Monday!!

Saturday

I have been so bored today. I enjoyed both sessions of conference. Cleaned my bathroom, kitchen, family room. And then . . . sat around. I am so restless and ready to go out and do something. I need to get rid of my restless ancy feeling! But how do you do that. I am not much of a home body! I'd be out most of the day if I had something to do! :) I don't like sitting home with nothing to do. I am not a huge TV watcher. I can only spend so much time on the internet (already TOO MUCH) and I don't want to clean anymore. So here I am! Bored. This is when I hear the "Enjoy it while you've got it, once you have kids you'll never have time to do what you want." But really . . . I think a screaming baby would be pretty good about now!

Celebrity Morph by MyHeritage

I was messing around with the Celebrity look-a-likes and it said I looked like Sophia Bush! Ha ha!! I wish! I love her.

MyHeritage: Celebrity Morph - Free family tree - Blank family tree

MyHeritage: Family trees - Genealogy - Celebrities

General Priesthood Session

What do you do while your husband is at the Priesthood Session?

Seven Random Thoughts

Tagged by Jenny!

1.  I would love to go on Vacation, SOON!  I don't know why I am so ancy this year, but I can't wait to go somewhere.  Anywhere.  Even camping!  Dang the weather!

2.  I need a haircut so bad.  But do I really want one?  I mean I guess I could grow it out, but I don't really like it long.  Oh hair trauma!  I am so tired of hair!  Maybe I should just cut it REALLY short again.

3.  Man I sure don't want to substitute for the middle school boys PE teacher again.  That was not fun.  Neither were the 6th grade math classes.  I am sure glad it's the weekend.

4.  Hmmm...  what to do the for the weekend.  I wanna get out of here.  I wanna go do something.  Even wander around Wal-Mart, but Dustyn is sleeping.  Maybe I should wake him up.  Maybe not.  Anyone wanna play games tonight?  Yes?  Call me!  (893-1528)

5.  I wish I had a nice yard!  Some grass would help!  Or some $$ to landscape it!  Then we could just hang out outside.  Wonder if it's warmer out there?  Our house is pretty darn cold today.

6.   My eyes itch SO bad.  I usually use Clinique because it doesn't make my eyes break out, but because I was out and I can't by it around here, I bought some cheap brand like Revlon or something and my eyes itch so bad and are on the verge of breaking out.  Not a good thing.  I need to go shopping.  :P  Or stop wearing make-up.  Otherwise I won't have a choice.

7.   I wonder what I should make for dinner tonight?  Maybe I should grill something outside.  Or sandwiches.  I wanna be lazy tonight apparently.  :)  Maybe Philly Cheesesteaks.  That sounds good.  I think we'll have that!  I need to go get the mail!

I tag . . . Becca, Nicole (yep Becca, that means we need to convince her to start one.  Ha ha!), Ruthanne (I miss you!), Mitsy, and Trevor!  Happy Randomness!

April Fools

I thought about making my blog disappear or putting a different blog in it's place, but decided it took to much effort!  And probably no one would notice anyways. . . so I am out of April Fools Jokes. :P  It's been years and years since I have done anything for April Fools.  Guess I am just boring.  I never know what to believe today.  It's kind of a funny day.  Even if someone had some great, exciting news - I would doubt it.  Sad, huh?  

Have you pulled any pranks or had any pranks pulled on you?

Finding Hope (not so much April Fools)

Adoption is something that I am passionate about.  It something that I thrive to know more about and to learn as much as I can about.  It is something that my heart aches for.  It's something that I don't talk about a lot because it is so special to me.  

Our case worker always jokes that we should give a workshop on "finding hope" after a failed match/placement.  I know that I am far too emotional to stand up in front of a group of people and explain how to overcome the trial of a broken heart and to get up the next morning and start over again.  And again.  Knowing that it will probably happen again.  I guess that isn't the right kind of hope, is it?  I guess that sometimes I am not sure I even know how to do that.  Sometimes I lose the vision of a placement actually happening in our house.  How does that qualify me to help others find hope?  How does that make me strong enough to keep going?  Sometimes I don't know.  But then I think about the Plan of Salvation.  I think about our Savior Jesus Christ.  I think about our Heavenly Father and all the blessings that he wants to give us.  I think about our sweet Hannah.  I think about my sweet husband.  I know we are an eternal family.  I know that we will be blessed.  I know we will gain the true desires of our hearts.  I know we will have children on this earth.  Now where do I find the patience?  

I am hoping that by writing this post and exposing all my feelings and hurt that we have experienced in our Adoption Journey, maybe I can start to heal and just maybe I can help someone else that may be experiencing a similar experience (and thinking they are the only one out there, like we do sometimes!).  :)  If not, well then that is okay.  After all this is my blog about Adoption and our journey to get there.  Maybe this will open me up more to talking about it.  

Adoption is hard to talk about for me.  It's hard to let everyone know what has been going on and when we have a possible match.  It's hard to go back and tell them that things didn't happen as we had hoped.  It's hard to have people pity me or feel bad for me.  After all this is my journey, the one that I chose.  The one that I have always hoped for.  The one that I am excited about.  The one that will expand our little family.  

A lot of people don't understand why we chose to start the Adoption Journey.  After all I have been pregnant before, we know it can happen.  And I am sure with a little help it would happen again.  But the point is, I long to adopt.  I know this is not an easy road.  But it is the one that I want.  I know there is a baby meant to be in our family.  One that I can not bring into the world.  A baby that will come to us through adoption.  

I decided to put together a little time line of events and just maybe it might be a hope for someone to see that there are other couples out there with similar experiences.  (And for my own information too!)

October 23, 2004 - Our Sweet Hannah came into this world and then returned to her Heavenly Father.  

November 2004 - The road to conceive begins.  Dustyn and I briefly talk about adoption.

November 2005 - We know we want to Adopt.  It feels right.  We call LDSFS.  They send us the packet with a brief introduction to adoption.  

August 2006 - We decide that now is the time to start the process.  We paid our homestudy fee and the process begins.  

October 2006 - We are APPROVED!  Yay!  We decided not to tell anyone and just let everyone be surprised!  :)

December 1, 2006 - We are activated on Parent Profiles.  

January 2006 - We tell our family and friends we are adopting and start spreading the word!

January 31, 2007 - We are matched with C.  We talk on the phone, make plans to drive out and meet her.  Things seemed to be going well.  We were officially "matched".  Due April 26th.

February 2007 - As we finalize our travel plans, we learn through her case worker that she chose another couple.  

April 4, 2007 - We start talking to H.

April 20, 2007 - We start talking to R.

May 14, 2007 (Mother's Day) - We are matched with H.

May 2007 - Go to visit H.

June 2007 - Deactivate Parent Profiles.

July 2007 - Spend a month in PA waiting for baby P to be born.

August 20, 2007 - Baby P is born and H decides to parent.  We were SO happy for her and know that she made the best choice for her and P.  She'll always be one of my best friends.  Love her to death!  

August 30, 2007 - Matched with R.

September 2007 - R decides to parent.

November 19, 2007 - Parent Profiles reactivated.

November 2007 - LDSFS Online Profile activated.

December 2007 - Matched with C.  We are ready to fly out.  She had talked to our case worker and her case worker.  Goes to get final paperwork signed before we leave town and doesn't show up.  

January 29,2008 - Start talking to C.  She is such a cutie and a awesome person.  We were able to meet with her quite a few times and spend quite a bit of time with her.  We were feeling fairly hopeful that if she did decide to place her baby that she would consider us.  

March 18, 2008 - C has her baby early. (Due the end of June).  Baby Z joins our sweet Hannah.  This was a hard time for me because all the feeling of loosing my Hannah came back.  My heart hurts for C and all that she is going through. 

There is the basic rundown.  

I don't know why I feel the need to share this.  Maybe just to update my family and friends on where we are in our process.  I know that so many of them are feeling left out, but it's hard for me to tell family and friends that we are matched just to turn around and tell them it didn't work out.  It's hard to deal with the emotions and to let everyone else to deal with them too.  

This truly has been an amazing journey that I thank my Heavenly Father everyday for letting me experience.  I know that someday we will have a small little babe placed in our arms.  Someday the ache will be eased.  Our lives are changed forever through adoption and I am thankful for that.   I am thankful for the experiences that we have had to learn and grow.  Sometimes I wonder why this all has to be so complicated, then I meet another amazing birth mother or another adoption friend that helps me see the real blessings.   The reason why we are all in this together.  

Thank you for joining us on our Journey.  I know it is far from over.  We have the rest of our lives to learn more about adoption as it continue to bless our lives.

Thank you for the support, the love and the wonderful examples that you are.  You are what keeps us going from day to day.  You are what makes it possible to start over.  I will be eternally grateful for all of my fabulous adoption friends!  They rock!  

And this my friends is my presentation on hope!  Ha ha!  I guess maybe I still haven't figured it out.  :)